-our relationship will be permanently..??..-

** this is my beloved with his lovely cousin**

today,we was fight again..maybe my bad temper make it..not maybe..is make sure..i wanna say sorry to him,but i don't have any brave to talk it..i feel silly,i feel shy in front of him..i scared him to scold me..finally,the bad dream was came out..

im wrong to do somethings..i careless,i was mistaken about him..i don't know how to care a person who i loving for..futhermore,i just find a problem and make quarrel with him..i want apologize with him when he explain a lot of reason and principle..

i feel that im so selfish..i just wanna he take care me..im forgot he was losing his freedom,just because of me..he seldom contact with his friend also..just because he scare me will be angry him..i just care myself..i never thinking about him..all is my problem..all is i make it..no matter where i go wrong,he will be there to turn it into right..

im sorry..i cry..however,it's too late..i hurt him too much..his mouth was born a lot of sore;his hand was scald by oil when he was cooking for dinner..but i didn't asking his wound be more fine..??..i ignore his feeling..what feeling he has..??..

he got a lot of assignment to do..i still annoying him and want he chatting with me..i knew that he was tired..but,he still like nothing..and thrown out his trouble,make some motion to show me..i know why,he wanna be more happy although he worries about his exam or assignment..

i had a good boy friend here..however,i don't know to precious him..i hope he can take care himself..futher,wanna say "sorry" to my beloved..because i really hurt he so much,just like just now..i was lose one's temper again..i also wanna tell him that " i love you "..dear,i promise you,i will try to change my temper..and i wish you can understanding me also..you are num.1 in my heart..i will love you every moment in my life..believe me,i know the time can change anythings,include avell the love that have you give..i will try my best to do well in everythings..

really sorry today,wish you have a good dream..i hope,our relationship will be permanently..forever-ever..until last moment in my life..im sorry..dear..