..complicated..

i don't know what feeling i have now..it's complicated;helpless;speechless..eww,i hate myself,sometime,i feel that i'm abnormal if rather with other else..god,may you give me some inspiration,please..

he said,i was not contention what he gave me before..i just showing him that my hot temper..he was cant to endure it some more..!! what the hell..??on my mind,i just feel he like the sport more than me..!!even thought we go to date,but he will bring his siblings or cousins else..how come?i need the space for two of us..but,he never to know..!!

besides,he knew that i dislike he do the exercise for normally..because,he is crazy!!!can do the 3 different exercise for a day..how about me?he never care it..!!!i feel i already lost the status on his mind..i almost be crazy soon..!!!obviously,i'm not the num.1 on his mind..all as lie..

or may be,we are totally different..thinking different;opinion different;hobby different.. ...i try to accept it all..because,i may too overbearing to him..but,for him,at least should try into my soul,try to listen mine..try to know me more..=( i'm complicated,because i don't know how to do and settle it all..