feel stress..

i have a lot of things want to do..sometime,i really feel that need some idea..to recover that what i losing for..damn unlucky this few day,all the rubbish things come out by step by step,day by day..

bad things come out,should think some idea to settle it..but i have no idea now,my brain just like a white paper..anythings also cant do it as well..really be defeated already..

god,please bless me..i need a lot of time..sometime feel like sick..no more freedom..all controlling by other..im the loser..super loser..sometime,feel that wanna to die..it is hurt me..

which way should i to choice..continue to study..??..or choice to do which as i feel interesting business..???..or become a traveller..??..really wanna find a way to aegis myself..feel jealous bcome a kid..no more stress..no more annoy..just stay happy there..am i right..???..