how loser am i..

i really unhappy today..i don't know that who can be my listener..im get hurt today..im get fever,had some sore throat and headache..my friends was concerned me by msn..however,in front of him,i just say wrong somethings else,we make an arguement again..god..how angry am i..??why need i apologize with him..??it's unfair for me..i dislike..

im a sickness today..and don't want remind some unhappy memorries..you..always remind it for me..i try to forget it all..however,why i can't do it so..??i wanna cry..i have lot of stress..do ou know actually..i think,i may acting well in front of you today..but failed..i was failed to do it..im sorry..

i really don't want be a cadaver..my life is dark..do u know..??no matter what am i doing for yo..all is useless,rubbish..just has a word can describe me,u know what's word?that is loser..forever..i wanna give up my life..no more brave to fact the difficulty..no more..